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Saturday, March 11, 2006

hey all. =D
after a 2 month 4 day hiatus, yur darling blogging-bangala is finally back! (barely alive though, considering that within the span of a week, i've been to 3 doctors, each scheduling me for a throat scan, chest scan and dunnoe what shit respectively. but in all fairness, i have a naturally hoarse voice and was really coughing badly then.)

remember when yur parents told yu to be careful of what yu wish for? they were right, for once. before i started work in UOB, i was craving a bout of change, excitement and a colossal challenge in my worklife. and i've got, as usual, more than i bargained for. like hello?! i wished for A bout, meaning ONE! not a gazillion-trillion super million bouts of adrenalin-squeezing experiences! not good at all for the heart. oh wells, at least my contract ends 28th of this month. haha and that will mark the longest period of commitment in my career yet! so proud of myself. wheee. but i'll never do it againn.

never expected March would bring along with it such a huge change in my life. for the first time, i feel damned lost. with all the uni admissions and whatnot. i mean, think about it. will yur life just go to waste, should yu choose not to pursue an education straight after As?!
my results came as quite a surprise to me. and yes, i did not deserve what i've got. (am i stuck in a rut now.) anyhow, it gave me an option of local studies, which at this point in time i really cannot fathom. yet an overseas education would mean tripling the costs and reaping (seemingly) the same results. the thing in question is whether im selfish enough to put my parents through funding my horribly expensive education.
moreover, it wouldn't take an archaeologist (haha) to realize that im a totally erratic, changeable commitment phobe. i'm still not sure if i can really hold on to my interests for a sustained period of time. and right now, its a huge step i'm taking that will cost a whole lot of money. i don't wanna waste myself anymore.

on a brighter, lighter, happier note, i'm gonna meet eliz and wx for NUS Open Day tmr! hopefully i might find the second best course i want, settle down in Singapore and live miserably ever after. haha ok that was redundant. what i actually wanted to say was: I LOVE ELIZ and her MUM! =) her mum's like super sweet.. helped me buy sooo much stuf frm liverpool. really made my day. hehee. so excited to see the purchases. oh, and to meet eliz again too. =)

mans. hadn't noticed i blogged so much. it's kinda therapeutic though. haha so yu guys can expect more frequent bitchings frm me in the near future! sign of bad things to come, huh? anyways, kudos to yu for ploughing thru this primarily whining entry. have a hug and kiss on me!

* smiled like she meant it @ 7:17 AM
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